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July 20th, 2008

the mother @ 11:29 pm

Ugh I hate my boyfriends mother she is the meanest person in the whole wide world. I always end up having to cancel plans with him because she is the most helpless person i have ever met and can't do anything without his help but she needs to learn cause i want to marry him and he cannot take care of both of us. She frustrates me to no end. I know its not his fault because i know he doesnt wanna listen to her yelling but i get so frustrated and then feel like i'm being ditched even though i know he doesnt want to. I wish she was gone forever. I HATE HER! She's so so mean. My mie mie said he could live with her that would be wonderful then he would be able to save money and not be yelled at and less stressed and it would be great.

April 7th, 2008


Current Mood: frustrated frustrated

I HATE HATE HATE Anatomy and Physiology I do not think I can possibly pass it. right now I am passing the class by one point which means if i study extra hard and don't fail anything from now on I will pass the class with a D which is all I need however I've failed all but one of the quizzes so far and I don't even think I have any more extra time to study. This stupid class requires like 12 hours of studying a week and i have about 4 hours of free time a week to study and worse I have to drop it by Wednesday if i don't want an F on my transcript and I have a test Tuesday. My teacher is nice enough to grade my test right after class so I will know if i passed however that gives me only wednesday to drop the class if i need to and since i work till 3:30 I'm not sure i can get the form in time to drop the class wednesday and my teacher isnt even there on wednesdays so i dont know what to do and I am so stressed and I have tried so hard at this stupid class which i don't ever do when it comes to school and This is the only class i have ever come so close to failing AHHHHHHHHHHHHH Seriously I want to work with preschoolers not be a brain surgeon this class is such a waste of my time although I did cut a brain up last class and I really enjoyed it haha but i hate hate hate this class it makes me wanna cry all the time. UGH!

February 23rd, 2008

Me! @ 09:45 pm

Current Mood: chipper chipper

Today I turned 21!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

February 6th, 2008

Just because @ 09:18 pm

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November 8th, 2007

What a wonderful world @ 08:30 pm

Current Mood: ecstatic ecstatic

Okay  well maybe the whole world isn't wonderful but my life sure is. I love life. I love my boyfriend. I love my job, I tolerate school but I love the fact that I am almost done with it and then I will have a degree and be able to get a job when I am done with my job that I have now cause unfortunately when you work as a one on one aide the child eventually grows up and moves on but then you get a new one. I am so going to go work for the public schools after i get my degree though they pay so much better and it's just a much better place to work.  Did I mention I love my boyfriend cause I really do like lately I really really do. I didn't even know it was possible to love him so much because I thought I already loved him as much as anyone could ever love anyone but just lately every time I see him or think about him I just well I can't even explain it I just feel even more in love then before. oop now i must go make him dinner cause he's home and I said I would cause my class got out early so I'm at his house waiting for him to get home. I shall finish later if i feel like it or this might be the end of my post   

October 3rd, 2007

sick day @ 11:26 am

Current Mood: grateful grateful

I havn't posted in a while and I am sick right now so I'm pretty much laying in bed doing nothing not wanting to do homework. Yesterday me and Samuel made dinner and it was lots of fun even though it was pretty much just taking things out of a box and putting them in the oven but  we did it together and it was fun and it came out pretty good but we both are sick now so maybe we didn't do such a great job cooking haha. I knew I was getting sick though cause I was so exauhsted and I didn't wanna do anything but lay in Samuels arms and watch Americas funniest home videos because I felt like I needed to laugh or I would get sad. Then I got home and couldn't sleep cause I still wanted to be with Samuel I just love him oh so much and when your sick theres nothing you want more then to be comforted by the one you love the most. He is just so wonderful and fantastic  and I am so proud of him for everything he has been doing lately even if it does mean less time together he is really started to get his life together with school and finding a new job. Even if he doesn't really like his job its still one step forward and I am so proud of him for taking that step instead of just staying stuck and not doing anything. I makes me feel so secure knowing some day he will be able to take care of me and I love the way he makes comments about this is what it will be like when we are married even if he is joking cause even though we can never know what Gods plan is and it is truly up to him I really feel like it could very possibly happen. I can't imagine wanting to spend my life with anyone else. Even when I do get annoyed sometimes with him and he is spending a lot of time on the computer or something I don't ever think why would I go out with him I think Somedays in the future will be like this but thats ok cause I love him and this is something he really enjoys even if i don't <3

Well thats my rant about my Samuel I just love talking about him and get urges to but no one is around to talk to right now so you all get to read it. Oh and my friend had this song in her post and it reminded me of Samuel and it's just a good song Its called when did you fall by chris rice.

alright i should do my homework now. Uggh homework sucks   

September 3rd, 2007

Bert @ 09:50 am

Current Mood: chipper chipper

I got a fish. He's a blue and red Betta named Bert. I had him for two days now. He's not eating much and the package says feed him twice a day 4-6 pellets but I looked online and I guess it's normal for them to  not eat a lot  especially  at the beginning so I guess I shouldn't worry to much but I just can't help feel he is going to die soon. I find that getting fish is kinda addicting I really wanna get another one now but I only have a little bowl and not enough room to buy anything bigger. Today is Labor day woohoo I am so excited I don't have to work today. Work has been so absolutely insane. Our lead teacher quit and was asked to leave early leaving our regular teacher in charge and she is doing the best she can but she is completely clueless and it bugs me sooo much. Some days I feel like I could do better then she is. It's very frustrating when you just wanna hit someone upside the head and say hey can't you see that no one is paying any attention to you your approach is not working. School starts again yuck and the day of the fair parade and the fair and of course class is 6-9 so I can't go to either thursday night errrrrrg! Now for the happier things I am still so so so so so In love with Samuel and with all these weddings I've been going to I can't wait to get married but I guess I also can cause you have to have this thing called money which takes a little while to get but thats cool I know it will happen soon enough at my cousins shower people kept asking me when I was gunna get married it was funny but weird cause I could actually say in a few more years. It made me feel so grown up haha well I'm off to enjoy my labor day.

August 1st, 2007

it's been sooo long @ 06:53 am

Current Mood: content content

    I had a few minutes before I had to go to work so I thought I would update ya all on my life. Still with Samuel and loving every minute of it. He got a new job and I'm super happy for him and even though he's been very tired I know he'll get use to the hard work then we can do more stuff when he gets out of work because he won't be working till 10 anymore like they were making him do at Big Y woohoo. Hmm lets see I've been working as a one on one aide for a little girl with A.D.H.D. and sensory integration issues. Its alot of fun but can be very tiring since I have to be up at like 6:30 and I don't do morning well at all although I feel really good this morning probably because I got a bit of extra sleep. My Daddy bought a corvette, he took me for a ride yesterday it was great. we had the top off and the wind blowing in my hair. I loved it. I feel as though there was something else I was going to write about but it has seemed to slip my mind and I must finish getting ready for work now.

June 2nd, 2007

meh @ 11:30 pm

Current Mood: blah blah

my nose is running and I really wanna be able to finally spend some time with my Samuel :-/

May 12th, 2007

memories @ 10:10 pm

Current Mood: loved loved

Today I was grocery shopping with my mom when my phone starts ringing. I looked at the number and it wasn't one that I recognized so I figured it was a wrong number. Turns out it was my ex-boyfriend who I don't think I've seen or talked to since like the summer after we graduated high school.  Talk about awkward. Then I was thinking about my Samuel and how much I love him. I was looking at pictures from my birthday which was only a little while after me and Sam started dating that was the best birthday ever and our first valentines day :-) Laying cuddled up in his warm  blanket in his cold living room watching movies was fantastic. Then there was our one month anniversary and our first kiss. Thats when I knew he was perfect for me. I don't even know why but in my head I had this idea that the guy I was going to marry I wouldn't kiss till we had at least been going out for a month and that was depending on how well we knew each other before we dated and on our one month anniversary he kissed me and it was perfect and I had never told him that I wanted to wait till we were going out at least a month so its not like he knew it just happened. Even now that we have been together for a year and 3 months I still get so excited when I get to see him and there are so many things that remind me of him all the time like smells or  things on tv. I remember a long long time ago like years ago my mom saying you should date Sam but I never thought it would actually happen and I don't even know what changed just one day when we were hanging out I felt something different and I was so excited and looked forward to seeing him and then going home to talk to him online for hours till like 4 in the morning, I must admit when he went away to college I cried for several nights and I guess I kinda had a crush on him but I never woulda thought back then that he would be the one I will spend the rest of my life with at least i sure hope he is. I just love him so  much I love everything about him. EEEK I'm so thankful that he likes me and God put him in my life.

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